Dear Holy Father,
God the Father started talking to Barbara Rose Centilli during the late 90's. He picked up where He left off with Mother Eugenia Ravasio in the 1930's who lived and died in the favor of her local Bishop who, after a ten year investigation, approved them. Father wanted a Feast Day as the Father of All Mankind established in His Honor and now in addition He is asking for His children to Consecrate themselves to Him through an eight day solemn Holy Octave of Consecration. Perhaps you have heard of it. I made my consecration in 2005 and it saved my religious vocation and my life. I am now, and have been, an active Transformer, which I will explain later.
See, people like me have a lot of trauma from their childhood. I thought I was kind of rare for a Catholic and a Christian when I had my conversion in my 20's in the early 90's. I now gravely confess to you, it isn't true and is even less true now. Our Lady of All Nations, approved msgs of Amsterdam, warned us about degeneration of souls around the time of the World Wars when plans were in force but the effects were not so obvious as they are now. As it turns out, most, with few exceptions, were victims of Sexual Abuse and some influence of or actual Satanic Ritual abuse from their childhood. And every one who did also had freemasonry in their family history as well. This is not a coincidence. (A very dear friend, one of the less than ten left, who has remained supportive of our movements cofounding, is an SRA victim of her freemason Masonic priest Uncle and a SA victim of from her father. And my maternal affiliate who had FM in her family tree was abused a lot by relatives and babysitters up till her teens and she had it as well, just to name two but all the ones I personally learned of originated from the occult). But it is a secret plague that everyone is now contaminated with in my society, and probably throughout the world. I hate to tell you such evil but I have to because Father gave us a remedy and when you know it you can make it available to everyone as soon as possible because it is the remedy for the contamination of God's children. I have been scrutinizing various private revelations for 20 years now, but nothing compares to these and I need to tell you why. Father says it is in fact, the "Final Devotion". And it not only completes the missions of Jesus and Mary but brings us home, sealed in and with our Father... He says it is for "all" His children, not just Catholics He means. Consecration to Jesus and Mary prepares and brings us to Consecration to the First Person of the Trinity, namely Our Father. And we need this relationship and binding act now, more than any other thing we could possibly do... and I am not exaggerating in saying so, in these grave and imminent times and here is why we now need Our Father and He has come to us to confirm this.
I have come to understand, and if you do not already know, you need to know this, that trauma creates "alters or split off parts" in our subconscious that retain the trauma memory and remain repressed until they feel safe enough to come out and hopefully share the memory, be healed and integrated into our whole conscious selves. In the past Dissociative Identity Disorder ( D.I.D. ) was something that was not so rampant, but what is key here is that people can have alters without Multiple Personality Disorder. Well, as people are ignorant of having alters, they will identify with their repressed alters trauma and mistaken it with present reality. Try reasoning with someone about something like keeping the shared bathroom clean when their unknown repressed trauma fixation is about being re-abused sexually which they are identifying with a dirty bathroom. But this disease contaminates the whole person and seeps into endless areas of their conscious life. It is very much like an inner ghost they cannot see, so they cannot reject it. They can also err in thinking that parts of them must just want sin or that they are continually tempted beyond their strength which scandalizes their faith. No, these are in fact alters. Good souls, spiritually highly advanced souls even, have them and it grows over time into neurosis because people end up thinking they are bound to sin and disordered passions, or parts of them are evil, but actually their alters are fixated in the past trauma that created them. Does that make sense? That's why our world looks filled with nuts right now, people are beginning to acknowledge this and neurosis and social anxiety disorder is quite common. Alters are making choices for a lot of people because they are fixated on a particular coping skill in order to survive, and their free will becomes hindered by compulsive behavior ruled by fears. We used to call this temporary insanity or hysteria because it was understood that a person becomes unable to use their reason and they needed help to bring them back into a state of calm where they could use their reason again. Now, it is so common that we try to laugh it off. But having no self control or worse, sense of "self" at all, even with the saving Blood of Jesus and years of devoted commitment to holiness, is no laughing matter.*
This, no doubt, is the master plan of the adversary. It is practically impenetrable. I have been part of a New Movement founding since 2000 and I have seen masses of good Christian souls, ultimately, with little exception, making major, not just minor, decisions not with reason or faith, but with their alter’s survival skills and with reactive compulsions and disordered instincts. It disables people because their alters get triggered. I.e. a person may accidentally bite their tongue hard and surface the emotions attached to a repressed act of violence memory from their past, that they are not consciously aware of, and it immerses the victim and disables them from reality in the present. It is in fact, very confusing. Many people I know instinctively shut down their emotions when they get triggered yet insist they are fully paying attention... as far as they understand it, they are. This disables them from retaining or remembering the present experience they are having or remembering it accurately because they are not fully present. And if they do let their emotions out to feel temporarily, they may see the experience through their alters abuse memory which their core or host (the part of them which has mostly been consciously present) conscious is not fully aware of. Alters or Parts often do not share their memories with their Core until they have developed a trusting relationship with them.
It can also creates the dynamic of having the effect of having mortal sins and/or demons attached to oneself, but without actually gravely sinning, so going to confession does not only not heal and reconcile but worsens the situation since it causes self condemnation. Nor can it just be renounced as an oppression as if it were a matter of needing deliverance and treating an alter as if it were a demon exacerbates the self condemnation. Jesus does not see alters as sinners or something that can be cast out. Treating wounded innocent victimized parts of us as evil, often that is what their abusers conditioned in them and by doing so, in fact, creates more alters within these victims.
Not only do people not know they have Parts or Alters, but we are ashamed to admit it and in addition, allowing these parts of us to surface and deal with their past "present" trauma is actually scandalous to people as it suggests a real threat to their stability and rightly so. You can understand the terror response to the consequences of such a commitment. I have been blessed to commit the last 25 years of my life to my healing and I can confirm, my initial purification, intense as it was with demonic attacks common, was easier than allowing my alters to come out for healing. Because alters remain the age they were at the time of their creation. They have to be loved and nurtured into the present and into a loving relationship with Jesus so they can come to be saved and the people around them have to support this as well. Before I could just will to give my fiat or forgive my sinners and accept my God's Love, Mercy and healing regardless of how hard it was because I had a desire and sufficient level of maturity and I could do this alone with God. But alters may be infants and or severely maimed and deranged and even deviant or think they are aliens, pets, demons, or their actual abusers etc.. They have severe identity confusion. Thanks to an internet site God led me to, I knew to trust their good will to protect me, that they were in fact, parts of me that I needed to love with the saving love of Jesus and then that ultimately, they would choose to accept the goodness of God with our gentle insistence and finally integrate with me. So, even though I had 25 years of converted deep intimacy with God, they not only did not know Him or the new close Christian family members I now had around me, but had hostility towards anything that was not familiar, even the now older and core person of myself! They cling to their survival skill with a fierce tenacity to survive and it takes some coaxing to build their trust so that they are open to a better way than what they believed worked for them in the past, and often did. In fact they are very attached to the abuse in many intricate ways. It is quite a process. Grantley Morris at Net-burst.net brought me into the path of healing of my alters. I do not think any of this is widely known, understood or acknowledged, but now that I know it, I understand it is a plague and I recognize them often in other people. It has helped me a great deal to no longer be so afraid of mysel, God and humanity, because now I KNOW they are not just evil or a threat to my safety. Alters are abusive out of fear, but they are trying to survive and protect. Before I thought everyone got oppressed and demonically attacked me, or worse, were just mean.
God allowed us to develop alters as a highly sophisticated means of survival so that we could heal when our abusers were gone when we were older, with the adult part of us guiding us to integration in Jesus. But without accepting this vital truth people will assert that they are highly functional mature adults with governance over their reason. They ignorantly insist to survive and believe they are functional and they end up seeing through the eyes of their past abuse that someone else's present actions violated them in someway, but they cannot see their own hardness of heart and/or the real origins of their fears and their own irrational defensive and reactive neurotic behavior. It creates a distrust in themselves, in the people and world around them and ultimately in God as well. It also makes a lot of people unknowingly proud and self righteous. I had both a passive and a tyrannical parent figure and I have struggled with constantly interiorly flipping back and forth and I had thoroughly rejected my past, my past erroneous identifications and necessarily my relatives, through God's own initiative and guidance, with love, forgiveness and no bitterness and I still was bound to them within me... and for many, many years, I was ignorant and could not figure it out. Why was God allowing them to seemingly follow me and oppress me in my dreams, my interior life etc.. Now I know, and I can no longer be afraid of me or think I, me, am still attached willfully but I can discover the reasons for any residual interior compulsive attachments. This has freed me. Father tells Barbara Rose Centilli (Seeing with the Eyes of the Soul book where are the origins for the H.O. Feast Day and Consecration to God the Father) that not everyone can change at this point, but He said that those of us who can, can be transformers for those who cannot. He does not specifically mention "parts of alters" but Barbara herself at one point has a kind of shutdown-breakdown and the 700 pages of dialogue show how Father relates with one of his "typical" modern children... probably not limited to just female Americans, with coping skills, behavioral disorders, false perceptions etc. .
(Note: I added later that God the Father spoke of a "plague" as a disorder that, after some consideration, sounds very much like a reference to "alters". It refers to a "spiritual contamination": November 14, 1996.)
* at the time, sitcoms like Disney were just beginning to incorporate people with disassociation disorders with humor, and multiple kinds of disorders in general. Now it's commonplace to see people with disorders on mainstream media but sadly with a new philosophy or meaning that they are "differences in personality and not necessarily treatable or curable".. It is good that at least these disorders are being socially acknowledged but if we do not treat them as the disability that they are and acknowledge the real disabling effects they have we will not try or believe there is help or recovery. Trauma is curable. It may take time, but therapists are guiding many qualified individuals safely through trauma and PTSD healing, memory healing and recovery and integration.
Also, I revised and updated this text to be more comprehensive so it is no longer the original copy.))
Which leads me to the Father devotion, the Final Devotion and particularly, the Transformation.
Here is what our Father has to say about it:
Our Lady has blossomed this into what is now primarily my communities spirituality because it allows us to have an intimate relationship with our Father regardless of our disabilities and degeneration from abuse and the stumbling blocks that are present because of that, especially trust, a virtue necessary to function in consecrated life and to depend on God as children of Our Heavenly Father. I have come to understand that having an open heart is the door to God's love entering my heart and then my choice to offer up my suffering and everything I am experiencing to Him for Transformation is 1) a most effective way for me to be sanctified as a person with disordered passions (Father tells us this is now common from transgenerational bondage, namely, generations of unrepentant family tree sins) and 2) the only effective means left now of God Transforming all that is now evil and/or disordered into good. He said as much when He said that it is now too late for us to save or restore things, even as His instruments, that now it had to be His act of Divine Intervention to save the world through a Coming Transformative act and that we advance and assist by consecrating ourselves to Him and being transformers in and with Him ourselves. It puts the focus directly onto God Himself and upon each individual to only commit to one act now, namely, giving themselves to God the Father and willing freely, out of love, a willed intimate personal and ongoing relationship with and in Him. I have understood this because I have seen that most people can no longer have an open heart. This was the adversaries master plan... close hearts and you close the door to God's dwelling on earth because His living temple on Earth is the human heart. Good people are sacrificing themselves to do good acts but with hearts that cannot open up to love, so their acts are empty as St. Paul tells us, and not bringing them closer to God. And many, many people are simply trying to save themselves ignorantly and compulsively to save more victims themselves because they do not know and so do not really believe, in a God Who saves, so they are reliving their own abuse over and over again. Father even admonished Barbara once exposing this by saying, "You do not trust Me to oversee what happens to the innocent ones. (8/17/98)". It is quite frequent. It really takes a humble spiritual child to be a transformer because it takes the power and control out of our hands and puts it in our Fathers. And perhaps most significantly, it allows a soul to feel they have permission to go through their healing and purification and sanctity by simply giving it all to Him and He will sanctify and the need for them to control, protect themselves, save and/or understand and succeed no longer has to be their focus.. It liberates us to be children of God, as St. Paul says, and to worship Our Father in "spirit and truth".
It disarms satan and bypasses, as nothing else can, our present real disabilities of trust, vulnerability, shame, repression etc.. The little simple way of St. Therese is no longer possible because doing little things out of willed charity is not possible for the average Christian ignorant of authentic love. Father tells Barbara that she needs to teach His children what love is, because they don't know it...have never experienced it, having never been loved themselves. A fixated wounded victimized child needs to experience being loved by God and know they have a Father that not only created them for Himself in love, but that He is present now and can and will make up for their abyss of deprivation through the promises He makes in this devotion. I can confirm that if one is dedicated and resigned to their martyrdom as selflessly as they're capable, in order to know and love Him with their whole selves, they will grow into wholeness and deeper knowledge and intimacy with Our Father, in a relatively short time. And He will render their errors. It is miraculous. Mother Teresa said we had the greatest poverty in this country of U.S.A. and that is why. It is a poverty of being loved and wanted. It fuels consumerism.
Jesus tells us in the Divine Mercy Novena prayers that the spiritual children are His favorites. He tells us that He reveals Himself to the little ones and that we must be like little children to dwell in His Kingdom. Now He goes further. He tells Barbara that these little victim children who offer their sufferings up to Him in unison with Jesus, are doing the most for His Kingdom at this time. He says that those of us victims who do not know that they are His beloved children are vulnerable and will be chewed up in the jaws of satan. Sadly, I see this all the time because people fail to convince their alters that they are safe and loved by a powerful and loving Father God, so the cycle never breaks. Father tells us that the Triumph of the Immaculate Heart is accomplished when God's children all return to Him. The Consecration and Feast Day and our fiat to being His transformers accomplishes this. These are His words. Please say yes to allowing ALL God's children to be working effectively and powerfully towards this final realization of the Era of Peace. Approve the Father's Words in the Seeing with the Eyes of the Soul dialogues, promulgate them mightily and swiftly yourself, and allow us to do so and confirm our existence, validity and spirituality.
in and with our Father,