Dearest sweetest Father:
The cycles of life! It’s hard to keep up with them. This morning was so
stressful, but now… all is well— the details worked out. Thank You so much,
Father. Help me to be more patient no matter what the circumstances.
Help me to learn how to handle stress better. Grant me Your peace, Father,
in every moment. I love You. I give myself to You. And I ask that You bless
all my family, friends, all those connected with the Apostolate, and those
who have consecrated themselves to You. Please, Father, if it is Your will, I
Daughter of My heart:
Do you trust Me?
Then why do you balk at the trials in your life? Why do you question the
everyday workings of your life? Why do you respond with impatience and scorn?
Do you not know that My hand is always upon you? Why do you despair so
easily? Have you no faith in My presence, in My will for you?
I’m sorry, Father. When the stress becomes unbearable, it is actually painful.
I feel anger at a certain point—frustration. I’m sorry, Father, please help me
Calm yourself now. Relax. Be at peace. Find your way back to Me. Where I am,
there is only peace. When you react in anger and frustration you “choose” to
move away from Me. Do you understand?
Yes, Father—intellectually. But in practice, this is very difficult sometimes.
You will learn, little one. I am pleased with your newfound excitement, but it
must be measured, as you know. Temper your emotions with My peace.
[I see myself walking a tight rope and our Father is helping me to maintain
Content yourself with the knowledge that your life, and the lives of all My children, remains always within the grasp of My mighty hand and paternal heart.
You are not alone. Life is not a series of incidents dictated by chance. Life is not
random happenings. Your earthly life IS your journey back home to Me. It is a
sacred journey which leads to Me. Am I not the Holy of Holies, the Lord God of
Hosts? Am I not the Alpha and Omega, the Beginning and End of all? This life
I have given you is not meaningless. It has purpose and a plan—My plan. Do
you ponder your existence?
I used to, Father. But I know the reason for my existence now, It is to return
Wisely said, My daughter. But do you believe it in your heart? Do you live this
every day of your earthly life?
No, Father, there are times when I forget it. Especially in times of emotion.
Then commit yourself to this effort. Live each day in each moment, for Me.
Every moment is an opportunity to find Me. Find Me in every moment of your
earthly lives. I am there waiting for you—patiently and mercifully. Be at peace.
And look for your Father more faithfully. Shalom.
Rev 21:3-4—”And I heard a great voice from the throne, saying: Behold
the tabernacle of God with man, and he will dwell with them and they shall be his people;
and God himself with them shall be their God. And God shall wipe away all tears
from their eyes: and death shall be no more, nor mourning, nor crying, nor sorrow
shall be any more, for the former things are passed away.”
Thank You, Father!
[Epiphany: Holy of Holies—surrounded and contained the Ark of the
Covenant. Our Father surrounds and contains the new ark, temple, which
is us. We are moving to enter the Holy of Holies—Our Father and His Kingdom.)
**Later I am not using that one for editing anymore.
Also, I would like to add a personal reflection I had when reading this excerpt. I realized that in my desire that God come and break through all of the darkness, chaos and evil that maybe most of us experience at least on some level presently, I understood in my pleading, that we would ALL experience a Figure of Good overriding and reestablishing justice, peace, freedom and safety for ALL ...that God does in fact want that too! He has announced to us through His prophets and chosen vessels of this time that He will in fact, do just that. So, I was trying to hurry that up and really believe that through Love, He could and would do it, in a blink of an eye:) at my invitation:) (through Our Lady in the Name of My Consecration to Her since He cannot resist His Mother...)) I also understood that My living IN and WITH Love (God), our turning to Him and offering ALL we experience, as He told Barbara, that we absorb and offer to Him that He would transform, was the way to not only usher in His Coming, but begin to experience His Coming now. And I believe that this is how He wanted to answer my prayer. I was enlightened to see that so many people, feeling a heightened level of instability on some level, especially those who suffer trauma and it's effects, are often living in a state of survival. I understand personally what it is to be in a reactive state of coping skills somewhat taking over one's will. It is so necessary that we carve out some quiet time to reflect on our motives and connecting with God's Presence in us. It is in giving over everything we feel, and absorb, to Father in our Consecration that He can then transform the world, but more importantly, ourselves. And eventually what happens is that the sense of compulsive survival becomes an ability to choose to be with and in God not out of fear to survive but a freedom of one's will and desire for Love. And this, I understood, is the Transformation.
Sometimes, I feel this overwhelming desire that the Remnant gather together, that we may support one another, perhaps out of a human longing for "family". But, this understanding relieved me from the angst that I felt accompany that desire. And became a prayer that the Holy Spirit communicate His desire for the earth to be inflamed with God's Love... because it is in fact, an act of God that can and will accomplish this, and our Consecrations unite us to the Heart of God and give us that connection we all desire with our Family in God, you my brothers and sisters. Peace and Blessings.