We continue with Seeing With the Eyes of the Soul, Words from God the Father, from the very beginning of messages and the following is taken from Ch. 1, second and third day entry with a reflection from Bromar4
Dearest, Sweetest God, My Father:
Last night I dreamt of a religious setting with a library—and it felt good.
Working for or with a religious community felt so right—like at last I was
where I was supposed to be. It reminded me of the convent a long time
ago [when I was growing up]. Thank You, Papa. Let me do only Your Will
today.
You must trust Me in all things. YOU MUST TEACH MY CHILDREN AFTER THE
STORM. I do not come for you now but there will come a time of joy and sor-
row when I will wrap you in My Arms and carry you to My Throne, like a babe
bundled in My protective Arms. YOU CARRY THE SEED—the Truth—only you
can do this work for Me. This is My Plan devised, developed, and designed for
a purpose. You need not know now—but there was a reason, My innocent
one—you are worthy. You are My child who I love intensely. EIGHT DAYS from
now My wish will be made known—8 DAYS! …
Bromar4 meditation
Trust Me in all things. It occurs to me that we trust people that we believe we know well enough to believe what they tell us. But trust becomes difficult when we have been betrayed. If someone has broken that trust, how do we know they are again trustworthy? Our hearts start to close, maybe too afraid to remain so open, so vulnerable. Maybe we start to believe that trust must be earned, proven. Maybe we start to believe that we should only reward those who have proven to be so, with our trust; that we should treat our trust as a valuable commodity, a dividend that is earned only when enough dues have been paid.
But it is apparent that God does not treat us this way, even though our sins are in a certain sense a betrayal of His trust in us in giving us grace, the indwelling Trinity, being baptized into the very life death and resurrection of Jesus. And if God, Who is the only one, in justice, Who would have the right to treat us this way and does not, then how is it that we often justify treating Him this way?
I have often heard reasonings of people who say God should not have allowed this horrific thing to happen to me, that since He is all powerful and He did not prevent it then He did not love me enough to prevent it, and if so then why should i trust Him. But this logic would deny free will and free will is intrinsic to love and cannot be separated from it. To deny free will is to control someone. But if we have to control people to keep them from harming themselves or others, then we have forsaken love and made ourselves a god. The problem with that is i cant live up to that. I am not a savior, i am not a redeemer, i cannot absolve from sin, where sin abounds i cannot make grace abound the more, i cannot bring good out of evil, i cannot create out of nothing. Besides it is the same free will that allows us to do good and evil alike, to love and hate, to be merciful and severe.
The truth it is not God who has proved not worthy of trust, it is men, men sin, men abuse, men oppose God, His grace, His love. So at the core of mistrust in God is really the inability of people to blame the right person, the persons who committed the acts that broke our trust. But if i blame God Himself, then i close myself off to the one place where i can receive all the help i need to come through the hurt and pain and all its effects.
I believe this is a problem of epic proportion, and that is why He tells Barbara to trust Him in all things. Because when we attempt to do this we will find all sorts of areas where we tend to trust ourselves and not God saying that we have learned through experience how to behave in certain situations. But in reality we are saying that our past wounds in these areas have left us unable to trust, depend and rely on God, on love and we are unable to choose freely our good, and instead are being pushed in a direction that feels safe by those very unhealed wounds that we call our experiential knowledge, and possibly our discernment as well.
So let us seek healing and freedom from all that creates obstacles in us to a full trust in our Father, who not only deserves our trust but is the only one who cannot actually betray it.
Pax Et Bonum
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August 25, 1996:
My Dearest Papa:
Guide me. Show me Your Will!
Dearest Barbara:
Draw a story, a picture of the Three Persons and Your Mother. Make us real to My children so that they may know Us. There are greater things yet which I expect of you. All things [around you] will be put in place over which you have NO control. Be open to My Wisdom and Guidance. ...This is by no coincidence. Let go and trust Me. ...
Bromar4 meditation with focus on first excerpt...
Trust Me in all things. It occurs to me that we trust people that we believe we know well enough to believe what they tell us. But trust becomes difficult when we have been betrayed. If someone has broken that trust, how do we know they are again trustworthy? Our hearts start to close, maybe too afraid to remain so open, so vulnerable. Maybe we start to believe that trust must be earned or proven. Maybe we start to believe that we should only reward those who have proven to be trustworthy, with our trust and that we should treat our trust in another as a valuable commodity, a dividend that is earned only when enough dues have been paid.
But it is apparent that God does not treat us this way, even though our sins are in a certain sense our betrayal of the trust He had in us when He gave us grace and the indwelling Presence of theTrinity when we were baptized (into the very life death and resurrection of Jesus). And if God, Who is the only One, in justice, Who would have the right to treat us this way (that we must earn or prove ourselves) and He does not treat us this way, then how is it that we often justify treating Him this way?
I have often heard reasonings of people who say God should not have allowed this horrific thing to happen to me, that since He is all powerful and He did not prevent it then He did not love me enough to prevent it, and if so then why should I trust Him. But this logic would deny free will and free will is intrinsic to love and cannot be separated from it. To deny free will is to control someone. But if every individual accepted themselves as ultimately responsible in an absolute way to have to control people to keep them from harming themselves or others, then we have forsaken Gods love and providence and made ourselves a god (not to be confused with parental supervision, harm intervention etc.) The problem with that is that humans cant live up to that. mortals are not saviors, we are not redeemers, we cannot absolve from sin, where sin abounds we cannot make grace abound the more, we, by our own power cannot create good out from evil, we are not all knowing, we mortals cannot create out of nothing. We are imperfect, mortal limited beings that Divinity (God) has infused into us souls that, being open to grace, can participate with Divinity, increase in God's grace only by God's will but it all originates from God's Divinity and He established only One Savior and Redeemer, Victim High Priest, True Prophet and Sovereign King Jesus Christ, Son of God. Besides it is the same free will that allows us to do good and evil alike, to love and hate, to be merciful and severe.
The truth is that it is not God who has proved to not be worthy of trust, it is men. Men sin, men abuse, men oppose God, His grace, His love. So at the core of mistrust in God is really the inability of people to blame the right person who first struck the blow, the person(s) who committed the act(s) that broke our trust. But if I blame God Himself, then I close myself off to the one place where I can receive all the help I need to come through the hurt and pain and all its effects.
I believe this is a problem of epic proportion, and that is why He tells Barbara Rose (woman whom Father is dialoguing with) to trust Him in all things. Because when we attempt to do this we will find all sorts of areas where we tend to trust ourselves and not God by saying that we have learned through experience how to behave in certain situations. But in reality we are saying that our past wounds in these areas have left us unable to trust, depend and rely on God, on love and we are unable to choose freely our good, and instead, are being pushed in a direction that feels safe by those very unhealed wounds that we call our experiential knowledge, and possibly our discernment as well.
So let us seek healing and freedom from all that creates obstacles in us to a full trust in our Father, who not only deserves our trust but Who is the only one who cannot actually betray it.
Pax Et Bonum